I admitted something this week: I’ve been stable for about two months.
Two months of relative calm and peace.
I think I’m coming out of the dark.
I don’t trust it all of the time, but it’s getting easier.
Now it’s time to start remodeling my life again. I say remodeling because while each episode results in some sort of shift, I’m still me. I don’t know what that shift is yet, but it’ll reveal itself in time.
The title of this post is a song by Audrey Assad, whose album “Heart” contains some of my favourite songs. “Even the Winter” is more of a relationship song, but I think it also works as a song about hope – how:
Even the winter won’t last forever
We’ll see the morning, we’ll feel the sun
We’ll wake up in April, ready and able
Holding the seeds in the soil…
I’m grateful that I seem to be waking up again.